Addiction.

[Valeries]

Dear all,

I need help.

I'm a male, attached, in my mid 20s and with a stable job.

I'm also a Xdresser who used to Xdress occassionally for fun. (i thought so)

I do Xdress out in public too and I'm 100% passable as a woman. I do drive so Xdressing at some parks at night wasn't a problem.

So far, I've only met 4 strangers whom I felt comfortable with while chatting and they were really sincere. 3 gentlemen and 1 lesbian girl. The details shall be up to your own imagination.

My Xdressing activities has been going on for about 3 years or so, like an on and off kinda thing.

However in recent months, i realized that my Xdressing activities has picked up tremendously.

My secret wardrobe has also doubled its inventory with many new purchases.

I used to believe I was a straight guy, but now I seem to be having second thoughts about my sexual orientation.

Every time when I look at a pretty girl now, I don't wanna hit her up, instead I think of how I could look just like her.

When I watch porn, I don't think of fucking the girl in the video, rather I dream of being the girl, on my knees, and having cocks stuffed in my mouth while i'm Xdressed.

Nowadays, I just have to Xdress every single night if possible after work. Be it at home or out, I can't resist the temptation.

Every night, I keep telling myself "not to Xdress tonight'. Just go watch TV, listen to some music and sleep early.

But eventually, I will always end up wearing women clothes to bed.

It's like there's two persons in one, a male adult by day and female girl by night.

This addiction is beginning to control me now, slowly taking over my daily life and routines. I feel that my directions are messed up. I'm lost.

I don't know what to do, except to Xdress. It's as thou I'm detached from reality for those hours.

Hope any bro/sis whom been thru this or knows someone like this could give me some advice.

This has got to stop, or at least reduce in frequencies.

Thank you for your time in reading my rant, any advice would be greatly appreciated.

V.

[hermiticus]

hey i think maybe u are under too much stress and u are trying to xdress and destress maybe u shld find ur gf to tok abt it or if not someone comfy that u could tok to if not i think the problem will always be der

[bmw38]

Valeries,
You remind me of my dilemma many years back. Just like you, I started initially with cross-dressing, then question my sexual orientation after luring into sex with a man during one of my outing fully dressed. It's difficult to understand why did I let this happened? Told myself that this will never happened again. Well, this assurance only lasted 2 days. We met and had sex again and this carry on for almost a year till he left for overseas posting.

During that period, I had sex with many other women just to prove that I am still a 100% straight but at the end I knew I wasn't.

You mentioned that you had met 3 gentlemen before, did you have sex with anyone of them when you are dressed up? How did you feel before, during and after the sex? If you did, then you are the best judge for your own preference!

Think about!

[ladyboylover]

Try Promises clinic who specialize in Addiction. The guy you want is Prof. Winslow - www.promises.com.sg

He will give you some useful perspective.

Good luck.

Also can PM me if you want to talk.

[Meelephant]

Hi Val,

PM me if you wish to talk.

Cheers.

[Valeries]

hi everyone,
thks for all your replies and pms,
i've replied to all via pm. cheers!

[justine1238]

its a lovely self confession and it takes courage for you to express your feelings this way ... but really think of this no more , accept it , don’t let the guilt get over your head . A lot of us are still evolving , my humble suggestion don’t worry too much about your destination , just accept and enjoy the journey as much as u can . if you cannot swim , or run from it ... just float .

xxx CD justine BBW btm