I was Naive (Story)

[Starter]

I walked to a nearby pay phone and dialed the number, holding on to my pager.

There was a ringtone and someone picked up, It was a auntie that first spoke to me.

Auntie: Hello?

Me: Who paged?

Background: Mummy my call lah, I paged.

Auntie: You wait ah.

Background: Go listen go listen.

Soon and not so familiar voice greeted me: Hello, it's me, Rachel.

I did not know what Rachel wanted, but hearing her voice sort of spoils my mood.

Me: what do you want?

Rachel: There are things that I need to show you and talk to you about.

Me: What is there to talk about?

Rachel: I think if you meet me, you will understand things better.

Me: Did Christina asked you to do this? What more I need to know?

Rachel: No, but I know she is upset because of this. Will it kill you just to come for a while?

Maybe I still had that place for Christina, maybe I wanted to know what was actually the things that Rachel wanted to show me, I agreed to meet her at Yio Chu Kang MRT.

I took a train down and upon arriving, this place felt familiar but yet distant. The place is the same, but so much has changed in my life

[Spud_Boy]

lai lai, breakfast edition release liaoz...

[Starter]

Rachel came, and she did not talk much. After passing some letters for me to read she leaned on the railing along the road beside the MRT station.

These were letters from Christina to her, I hesitated but she urged me to read them. I took a look at the first letter and it wrote something like this:

Rachel,

I hope all is well and I believe Sonia will be fine under your care, I am not in the best moods, as Lawrence had misunderstood me. He believes that I had asked you to Question him, but I too want to know why you did it? ( this part make me read on as something does not seem right) I hope you can tell me, as Lawrence has avoided me. I am lost, I did not know what happened but now it seems to be all my fault.

Christina

The rest of the letter all seem similar the only difference was the amount of depressing words used. And non of them actually states anything about our relationship.

I handed the letters back to Rachel and she looked at me.

Rachel: I think you really misunderstood Christina, she never asked me to question you.

Me: Then why did you do so?

At that moment it was getting more confusing, If Christina said nothing to Rachel, how did she know? And what was this actually about?

Rachel: I Think it will be easier for you to believe it if you contact Sonia on your own.

I gave Rachel a puzzled look and I did not understand now what does Sonia have to do with this.

Rachel: It was Sonia that told me about Christina and You. I think you will understand why I asked you to leave Felicia after talking to Sonia.

In my mind this is going crazy, Sonia told Rachel, now how Sonia knew? and what does it have to do with Felicia? I was getting confused and Rachel told me that was all she wanted to say before walking off. I was happy with what I had, But this meetup with Rachel stirred everything up again.

I took the train home and I was deciding if I should page Sonia. The thoughts I had then was "Was it better for me to know more, or should I let things go and be contented with what I have now"

[98188729]

Originally Posted by Starter

"Was it better for me to know more, or should I let things go and be contented with what I have now"

Know more!! Cos I also wanna know

[Starter]

Originally Posted by 98188729

Know more!! Cos I also wanna know

say Christina only, you wake up ah

[Starter]

The thoughts of paging Sonia did not leave me, I just could not brush it off. I took up the phone and I paged Sonia, it was a long while since I contacted her, she called back soon and I picked up

Me: Sonia?

Sonia's: Virgin ah..

Me: Rachel ask me to call you.

Sonia: why must ask me?........

Me: Sonia, I just want to know.

Sonia: Virgin, can don't let Felicia know? She will hate me one.

Me: I don't know, Sonia just tell me what happen.

Sonia: Got one time I was with Rachel Jie, then we talk about Bfs and Gfs lor, then I slipped my tongue, telling her Felicia is with you even when she knows you are with Christina, she did not mind. Rachel Jie got very angry and she wanted to call Felicia, but I begged her not to.

Me: Then?

Sonia: Then her birthday coming so she say she want to take this chance to talk to you and make you leave Felicia, that is why I ask Felicia to ask you to come.

Me: Then that day, I remember Felicia stopped you from saying things.

Sonia: Yah lor, I want to say Felicia ask me not to page you.

Me: why?

Sonia: Felicia also tell me about Jasmine and Ann, She say they will be angry if I keep paging you.

I get the picture, I have wronged Christina. I placed down the phone with Sonia, promising her that I would not let Felicia know any of this.

[Starter]

I took out all of Christina's letters, Tears flow slowly as I read through them in sequence. Her letters started with from self explanatory to pleads for my reply, after 2 months, I believed she has lost all hope. In her last letter she worte me, she wished me well and hoped I will be happy. Signing off with "never to bother you again, Christina".

It was over, and I was sure Christina went through more pain than I did. I was late in realizing the truth and my assumptions lead to her suffering.

I cried and nodded to myself "I was A Fool"

i kept the letters back into my drawer, and I did not stop crying. I could only console myself that it might be better this way as it was what I wanted. I took Christina's photo out of my wallet, looking at it for a long time before finally placing it with the letters.

That night, was a rough night for me. I laid in my bed and I couldn't sleep. I thought about how Christina must have suffered and reprimanded myself, I could only come to one conclusion: I did not deserve her.

[IceSpearz]

Wah... Gg i wan cry oso... Christina fan here!! So kelian

[Starter]

Originally Posted by IceSpearz

Wah... Gg i wan cry oso... Christina fan here!! So kelian

blame no one this is what i call ownself find one

[ris2099]

after reading the update, wnt to cry also... this is sonia's fault... must make her pay...

[hunghingboy]

Apologize to Christina, treat Felicia better. Bang Sonia silly or change her as a bait instead of pris. Lol

[nightingle91]

isn't it more to felicia feels most threatened by Christina thus the lies she told?

[Suracai]

Power story!! please update soon

[roaroyster]

Originally Posted by hunghingboy

Apologize to Christina, treat Felicia better. Bang Sonia silly or change her as a bait instead of pris. Lol

Not a bad idea

[Robustness]

Originally Posted by Starter

say Christina only, you wake up ah

Because its the best part